If you’ve read even one of my other posts you might be aware of how busy I tend to be.
I’ve written post after post about how I use certain tools to juggle working four jobs, being a full time student, having a relationship, and still having a social life with friends. I’ve shared with you how I struggle with anxiety and you may have noticed how my semester-ly goals often include things like “be happy,” “take a deep breath,” and “find time to relax.”
This is because there is at least one point each semester that I become too overwhelmed with my work load and break down. Last semester I was taking 19 units/credits of classes, and even though I made the Dean’s List and raised my GPA higher than ever, I found myself feeling constantly stressed. No, I didn’t need to take 19 credits of classes, but I did. I know why, too, I was using my busy schedule to distract myself from an unhappy and unhealthy relationship.
This semester I decided to take less credits, only 15, to give myself a bit of a break. I also got out of that bad relationship, and am now in a great one with a guy who treats me incredibly well. Somehow, that made things worse. Now that I wanted to have more free time to spend with my boyfriend, it made it more difficult to get work done without feeling upset. For the most part, I made it work. I juggled priorities, resulting in one half all-nighter to complete two 14 page projects, multiple upsets, a couple missed assignments, and have nearly made it through the semester.
Unfortunately, I had to take a step back from a couple of things. While my health and school work took priority, a couple of things had to be pushed to the back burner: like my blog here.
My posts became fewer, farther between, and (I’ll admit it) the content was lacking. I tried to fight the urge to give into the “just post it to post something” mentality. When I post here, I want to be proud of what I say. I want to focus on helping people and providing great content. I don’t want to post for the sake of posting. Unfortunately, I could not put in the time to make sure craft a post worth publishing.
The last couple of weeks I’ve had to take a step back away from the blogging community; from drafting, editing, photographing, e-mailing, collaborating, posting, and replying.. and focus on my school work and getting some sleep.
I want to say “sorry,” my first instinct is to apologize for not posting as much and to say it won’t happen again. But, I don’t need to. I’m not sorry. I needed to take a step back and I’m glad that I did.
This mental health break taught me a lot. While I love being busy, and I know that I am strong enough to handle a crazy work load, there’s no need to be busy to the point of overwhelming myself. Sometimes, there is a need to take a step back and breathe.
Thank you for sticking with me and for being patient and loyal readers. It really means a lot to me. You won’t be sorry. I have great things planned that I think you’ll like!
On that note, it’s nearly my Summer vacation.. which means I’m only working three jobs and no school, so expect me to jump back into my regular posting schedule soon. 🙂 I’ve missed you all, glad to be back.
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